Feeling Disconnected

Lately I haven't had the urge to post new posts. I think the fact that my laptop is still out of commission and when I do have access to a laptop, I don't have a great deal of time. I love putting up posts and I often times spend a lot of time and energy into making them worth reading. I don't necessarily like the fact that I am not able to sit and really put in the time and effort to make the posts as great as possible. It's making me lose focus and that makes me sad. This is my outlet and I love interacting and learning new things, all while sharing them with you. I'm hoping that once I get a new laptop that I'll be ready to bounce back. I feel awful because I'm at a point where I have the most followers I've ever had and I'm not putting posts out regularly to get them entertained. Thanks to all of you who haven't abandoned my blog yet and have been patient with my lack of posts.

On a good note, I have recently {like today} applied to go back to college next year. It's something I have been wanting to do and it's something that I have been putting off until my babies are old enough and don't need me any more. I currently have an associate degree in science but it's my dream to become a nurse. I thought for a while that maybe I didn't need to continue school and I would be fine with that but I'm not. My kids aren't going to be babies forever and once they are all in school, I would love to be able to work and help my husband out with supporting this family financially. It would also be great to have my own money and not have to rely on anyone. I'm nervous about the idea of school because I now have 3 kids to care for in additon to studying, cleaning, cooking, etc. I'm sure I can handle the task and I'm aware of the work but I'm hoping it will all be worth it in the end.